Beyond the Sky

Kinda at that point in life where everyone tells me....

Sigh. To hell with it.

Confessional time.

I love my daughter and I love her daddy. But I find myself wishing I was still free to do what the hell I want to do. Be who I want to be. No strings attached.

When our parents were kids, their parents told them not to get tied down to just one person. Now we're told to stick with one person.

Don't mistake me. I'm going somewhere in life. I just graduated from public school, I have a four month old,  her dad just joined the military, and I'm starting community college in the fall, pursuing nursing.

But if I had listened to my grandparents, I'd still be in Tn, just graduated from a private school, and attending Lee University for a music career. Oh how my life would be different.

I used to be completely happy with my life. But now I just have haunting thoughts about what I really wanted for myself...

But can I have what I love AND what I want simultaneously? They say you can't have your cake and eat it too. But why the hell not??

I'm 18 for Christ's sake!!

As kids, they told us the sky was the limit. Problem with that is we have footsteps on the moon, satellites outside of our atmosphere, and pictures of Mars. Why the hell should I conform to what the meager standard is??

I just wish I had my answer already.