When I’m nervous I have this thing yeah I talk too much
Sometimes I just can’t shut the hell up
It’s like I need to tell someone anyone who’ll listen
And that’s where I seem to fuck up, yeah
I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth’s starts going the words start flowing
But I never meant to hurt you, I know it’s time that I learnt to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt and I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I’m the one that’s hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think that that the trust we had is broken
So don’t tell me you can’t forgive me
Cause nobody’s perfect, no, no, no
Have you ever said something... Something you meant as a joke, but came out wrong? Something, that once said, you wish you could take back? But you can't? Because it's like trying to shove toothpaste back into the tube. It's near impossible.
Well, i said something to a girl today. Someone I really admire. She's sweet, she's funny, she's all around one of the coolest, and greatest girls I've ever had the privilege to know. She's always been nice to me, and recently even started opening up and sharing a few things with me. But i screwed up. i opened my big mouth.We were joking around about something...and I said something bad. I didn't mean to. It was playful and silly in my head, but when it came out... it was horrible. Low, even b!tchy. It made me sound like a snobby b!tch, and her look like a dirty scank. Which neither is true at all.
She asked me what the hell I meant by it, and I tried to tell her then that I was just playing. I didn't mean anything by it, but i don't think she knows how bad I feel.
I'm not the type to be mean out of spite. i hate hurting people. And I almost ALWAYS hurt myself in the process. When I burn bridges, it's accidental. It's a lit match thrown in the direction of a pile of sticks. An unintentional wildfire. One that can't be stopped till it burns out. Leaving unimaginable damage in it's wake.
What I hate, is I'm getting mixed opinions about it from 2 people close to her, and i don't know what to think... I want to find out where she lives, knock on her door, and apologize right now. But i cant do something that drastic... and i doubt anyone would tell me anyways.
How do you fix something like this?? How do you ask forgiveness knowing it may not be given? i wish i could turn back time and do it differently, but I can't.
Why can't i just shut up already? Why can't i keep the tooth paste in the tube, and the match in the box.
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