A Shared Fate

Silence. In the cover of darkness.

Were there stars in the sky? Did you breathe in the night air? Or was it unexpected. No time for goodbyes. Just slowly rocked into a sleep you'd never wake from. Did the angels carry you on wings so sweet on up to heavens gates? Or did Satan fool your poor old soul and trick you into the depths of despair. Were you ready to go? To meet your brother with arms wide open. Did you run into each others arms? Rejoicing after the years had passed. Was it what you wanted? Had you finished what you had cared to do? Do you wish you could have a second chance? Or are you satisfied with the life you left behind.

We will never know. For we can't ask you. We must wait our turns. Patiently or not. To discover your fate.

Almost 4 years ago you sat in the front pew of  your brother's funeral. Weeping like a child. No remorse for your true feelings. You were able to express what the rest of us couldn't. Pride didn't step in the way. No you were open. Like a window. Not commonly accepted behavior, but I envy you. For you didn't care. You loved him. To hell with the rest. To hell with the opinions of others.

I envy you. For you have him there in your grasp. You reached that destination that I eagerly await. But await I must. For my turn. Do I wish death. not now. I have a life to live. To make him proud is my goal. Give him my love, for though I knew you both so little, love is what I have for you.

In the cover of darkness, was death. A shared fate. Left us in silence.